Monday, July 19, 2004 at 6:30 PM ♥ Sarahdee ♥
For the very first time, after we broke up, im writing my thots down.
i cant stop crying. i cant stop thinking.
i still cant accept the fact that you're gone.
i wan to hold you back so much.
but u refused.
im no longer as stubborn as i used to be.
i wan to get hold of my happiness.
even if it meant putting my pride away.
but i know that no matter what i do.
you wont come back.
i din know that a change of environment for you.
would change the love we once shared so dearly.
do you know that i alwayz dial your number when im suppose to call another?
do you know that i alwayz hold myself back when i have the damn urge to sms you?
i know that you hate to see me getting all so paranoid.
but aint that suppose to be a usual thing for a girl to do?
i can no longer explain all these to you.
cuz i noe you will say "why u keep forcing me.."
even though my heart is aching so badly.
and me, longing to hold you again.
i noe it's not possible anymore.
it's time for me to let you go.
i wont hold u back.
i promise.
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